Lily Myers – “Shrinking Women”
May 9, 2013
Browsing, as ever, I came across this performance and felt the compulsion to share it. I thought it was wonderfully constructed with some brilliant lines in there. The text is there, too, if you click on ‘show more’ on the YouTube page.
It made me half-smile, half-cry because I think I still do that too often – the ‘sorry’ thing. I say something that is met with silence or a dismissive look and I react with an apology for having said it, even though usually it is nothing offensive or ‘wrong’. I still apologise for speaking, sometimes. Not for the content, merely for having spoken.
In my teenage years some people at school got really frustrated/irritated with me because for a while I ended up prefixing or suffixing almost every sentence that came out of my mouth with the word ‘sorry’.
If I missed a hit or dropped the ball. If I failed to pre-empt. If I got something wrong. If I stood in the way, which basically means if I were simply there. Then I’d apologise for my apologising, making things even worse.
[Subsequent rant deleted!]